THAT is not the reason I am depressed. I’ve been in a real funk all day. There is no real reason for it, except for the fact that I am slowly coming to the realization that I am slowly being sucked back into something I really have no desire to return to.
The Thirst
Fear of the unknown fueled
A deep and quenchless craving.It was real. It was desired.
It tugged at my frame and
Dulled my reflexes.
It rounded the sharp edges
And Lord, it felt good.The terrible thirst fueled
The fear, which in turn fueled
The thirst. And then.Into the bowels of hell I
Entered again, with my stomach
Heaving and body retching.I had nothing to offer, nothing
To puke up except the raw
Scrapings of my soul.Then I drifted into sweet and
Blessed unconsciousness.
—Roy Eddings
Did you ever want something really badly-and you try and try to get it-and all the while you can feel it slipping away from you, through your fingers, and you know in your heart-that you will never have it again.
I see expats in (fill in the blank) all the time-how is it they can do it and I can’t?
And in case you are wondering-it was this little phrase that set me off today:
You were not referred for this position because you were not in the group of best qualified candidates.